'Cause really, I just want to type about how I bawled my eyes out on the phone last night to my mom. Basically, I just felt overwhelmed to my tipping point. I bawled about not having a job in 3 weeks, about not having any hope of finding a job, of not getting accepted to school, of NO FUTURE, and any and every other nugget of self-pity that I have swimming around inside my skull.
I also got annoyed when she asked if I only chose Finland because of a boy. I just said no... In my tearful, blubbering state, I sure as hell didn't have the mental capacity to explain that what started as interest in a boy soon developed into a genuine interest in a specific education. It's one of those things that if someone else said it to me, I would think, "yeah, right". I'm sure that's what my mom is thinking. Erm, it's not like I haven't dropped everything and moved for 'love' before...
Ah, whatever. I'm just going to push forward. One week until the application period opens. And a bazillion more days until I know my fate....
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Hang in there. I've been at this point before...and I'm still having spin-offs. I'm sure you know that you'll get past it. It's just a time of great uncertainty for you right now, and that's a lot of stress.
And moving for love? Ain't no shame in that.
*hugs* Oh, housemate, I feel ya! Things will look up - it may not feel like it right now, but they will. And you can always come hang out with me ^_^
Thanks, guys!
I know that I can move forward, no matter what happens.
Even though I feel like I am floundering right now, I am obsessive when it comes to backup plans. Some of my recent backup plans have ranged from Toronto to Albuquerque to India. So I know there is always a Plan B, C, D... and so forth.
But gawd, please let Plan A work out!
Also, I'd love to come up North to see you sometime, Erica. I hope you plan on staying there long enough for me to figure out what is going on in my life (it might be a while...). ;)
As a back-up plan, have you checked out the SWAP program or the Working Holiday Visa programs on the DFAIT website. DFAIT has a zillion countries and I'm sure Finland is on the list for a 1-year work visa. In case you haven't checked, might be worth it to see what the age requirement is.
May also be worth it to check out and/or ask questions @ Dave's ESL Cafe and similar sites about finding teaching work in Finland.
Also, this post with first-hand, detailed info. about finding work could be useful: http://www.finlandforum.org/viewtopic.php?t=6317
I haven't actually looked into SWAP or other similar programs for Finland. I know I am too old to do it in England, but I believe Germany takes people up to 35 years old. I'll look into it for Finland this weekend.
And I actually just registered with Finland Forum the other day. So far I've just been reading the school related threads, but I'll check out what other options are floating around there too. :)
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